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Saturday, October 27, 2012

My Baby Girl

August 10, 2002 - October 27, 2012

 
We lost our baby girl Pearl this morning.  I had my baby for 10 years.  In those years she was plagued with colitis and Addison's disease.  She was not feeling well last night as she had her required rabies shot earlier that day.  She had thrown up her dinner, but with her sensitive stomach and her Addison's this wasn't unusual.  Sometimes she just needs a day or so to get back to herself.  This morning she still was not herself.  I held her for about an hour and when I went to put her down she could not stand.  Mom picked us up and we all took Pearl to her doctor.  I thought my baby was dehydrated and needed an IV.  Within 10 minutes of being there my Pearl went into cadiac arrest and after several attempts to save her, she passed on.  I held my little girl for as long as I could.  I am still in shock that I did not bring her home.  My heart is aching right now.
 
I lost my Bella in 2006 to cancer.  I knew she was going to die but when that time came it was still so difficult.  With my Pearl, there was no warning.  I mean I knew she had this disease but I was so diligent with her care that I never expected this....not today.  Every month we went in to get her DOCP shot and people from her doctor's office, from the billing department, would ask they be notified when Pearl was coming in so they could see her.  Everyone loved her and her doctor referred to her as a "Rock Star."  Many tears are being shed tonight for my baby.
 
I still have my Sophie and she is comforting me tonight as Mom took Jack today.  He knows Pearl is in heaven with Bella.  I'm sure he'll have more questions when he sees that Pearl is not coming home. 
 
I am so so sad tonight.  My heart is broken for my little Pearly.  I hope she knows how much she was loved and how much love she gave to so many. 
 
Pearl, you are healthy now.  No more medicine, no more shots, no more pain.  You are missed my sweet.  I will hold you in my heart forever.  I Love You!